Do I Make You Proud?

This thought has been running through my head most of the day. Do I make you proud? It is directed mostly to my Father in Heaven. You see, the older I get the more aware I become of my imperfections, my weaknesses, and my falling short in many areas. The older I get the more aware I become of my desperate need of the Savior in my life.

It is so easy to look at someone, as I have been guilty of, and wonder why they cannot just overcome their weakness. I mean it really is only a choice right? And then I realize how I must look to anyone out there who has heard me talk of my goals, and has yet to see me truly overcome. There are times when I wonder why me? But in all honesty, I am grateful for it. I am grateful for the humility that comes with it.

I know I am not perfect. I know that I struggle, and am weak. I know I give into temptations when I should remain strong. But I am trying, I am repenting, and striving with all my heart to will my soul to take over this natural woman. And as I struggle to do the right thing, I find myself wondering, "Heavenly Father, do I make you proud?" Because it is His opinion that matters to me the most. I desire nothing more than to please Him. To prove to Him that when the Savior paid for my sins, I was worth saving.

Deep down a soft warmth reverberates through my soul, speaking softly. I know what my heart hears. "Yes, keep up, move forward. I am proud. You are mine. You were worth it, and you always will be. Be strong, have hope, have faith. You will overcome. Have patience."

So to you reader, when you wonder as I do, remember, He loved you first, and will always.