Day Fourteen

Well I have made it two weeks. The stress I have been feeling lately has kept me from losing weight. I am down 11 pounds, but I was hoping for more. There is a part of me that gets frustrated when I cannot each just what I want, because of the repercussions. Who wants to be one of those people who gains weight when eating all the yucky, yummy foods you enjoy? I don't know I guess the stress of all the we have been through the past few days is starting to sink in and my emotions are on the rise.

It is about patience and persevering. Any goal has its sacrifices, and rewards. You just have to choose what you want the reward to be, and then make the sacrifices. I just wish I could get past the thought training of, well when I am down to my goal weight, I am going to eat...

There are parts of me that wonder if this is all worth it. But deep down in my heart there is a reason I am losing weight, and need to do it right now. There is a reason I can no longer procrastinate. I do not know the reason, but my heart still urges me on.

Sorry to sound so down in the dumps. Too much going on and the emotions are hard to keep at bay. I mean I truly am pleased with 11 pounds, I am just struggling with the positive for the moment. I will get back there, I promise.