Day Ten

Well I think that I have overcome a huge stumbling block! Whenever someone starts on a diet, they strive to start on a day that will have no blockades in the road, otherwise there is always an excuse. For me in the past, I would have to get through any holiday, birthday, stressful week, etc. before I could allow myself to diet. This time as you know I didn't.

Yesterday, my little boy had a seizure. If you have not experienced it be grateful. It is a very frightening event to watch. He is okay and doing well. He will have more tests tomorrow to see what is going on. But the point I am trying to make by telling you this is: I wanted all the horrible food I could imagine. And I still stuck to the plan, and it ended up being a source of strength and peace and I overcame my other emotions.

I discovered I am an emotional eater. I eat to avoid emotions, settle emotions, control emotions. And yesterday I didn't allow myself that choice and it was such a blessing. I realized that I don't need to delay, put off, or avoid my diet for when it is most comfortable. I have the strength and the power to use my emotions to pull me through difficult stressful moments. I have the control of my emotions to allow myself to feel, feel freely. I think sometimes we are ashamed to feel what we feel. And I think the logic side of our brain needs those emotions to help us keep everything in perspective.

Anyway, as trying as it was yesterday. As tired as I was yesterday. I stuck to the plan. I was strong and made the better choice. And that is overcoming a HUGE stumbling block.