Day 85

Before I enter my weight, I felt I needed to write something about my experience, thus far. I have been reading the Book of Mormon, minus a few days, almost every day. I am striving to learn more about myself, and what I am capable of. Today I am discovering something.

When you use faith, whole heartedly, it increases. You do not realize the amount it increases until you meet a challenge, similar to what you have faced before and you react differently. For example, I have at times tried to eat right, and diet, and what not. I have failed miserably. The reasons for my failures are: I had no foundation, I had no goal, I didn't exercise faith.

This time is different. Why? Because my foundation is the knowledge that I am striving to gain, about health, food, and spiritual knowledge also. My foundation is also desiring what my Heavenly Father wants me to do. I am striving to do His will. And He has been merciful enough to allow me the opportunity to grow and expand in this way. My goal is not to just reach a number, or be skinny, or fit into a pair of jeans that I like. My goal is to change my habits, the lifestyle I created. My goal is to better myself, to grow and gain strength and knowledge. This time I am exercising faith. It is only through my faith that I believe that I will receive my reward. I trust in a Loving Heavenly Father, who know me. I trust that through His Son, I can accomplish this goal.

Now this doesn't mean that my path will be any easier, it will be just as difficult. But the difference is that I will have a different outlook. When I apply faith, my hope and my determination are rewarded and the task at hand will not seem as burdensome. I can do this!!

Weight: I have gained three pounds. And that is okay. I have learned a lot this past week, and I am grateful for the experiences that have brought me that knowledge. This is a process, and I am going to follow it through.

I didn't take my inches this week, I will report next week.