Day 20

Do you ever wonder if you are being too hard on yourself?

I ponder this often. I try my best, but when it doesn't seem to be good enough I start to beat myself up. I know I could do better, and I should have done better. But in reality there are times that I did my best under certain circumstances, and yes in hind sight I can see what I could have done differently.

So how do you decide when or when not to beat yourself up?

I wish I knew the answer. I sit here wondering and yet do not know. I guess all I can do is ask myself did I do the best I could? And if not then make the necessary adjustments. It becomes frustrating though because you can say that about almost everything, right? I guess it is finding the balance and learning to decide what is going to help you improve and work on those. If it isn't going to improve you but rather bring you further down, then let it go.

I just need to say more prayers I think.