Day 12

Well I planned on having a somewhat leisurely day, but that hasn't happened thus far and that is okay. It has been a bit hectic the last few days, but it has also provided me many opportunities for service, which is so gratifying. I am grateful for all that I have and for how blessed I have been so quickly in this process already. I mean 12 days in and I am already noticing a change in my mood.

I was dealing with some postpartum depression, and it was driving me crazy. My logic mind told me that I should not be feeling the way I was and yet I couldn't help it. It is so frustrating to feel this way. But I look at it as a stepping stone that has led me here. I needed to feel that way in order to desire something different for myself. If I have lied to myself about the emotions I was feeling then things could have only gotten worse.

I am grateful for the gift of the Holy Ghost that has directed my paths before me and led me towards the steps I am taking now. And my reward and been and overwhelming sense of inner peace, strength to combat temptations, hope for the future, and great insight.

Just in these few days I am already a lot happier, less tired, more motivated to move and accomplish things, and content. I love feeling content, because it leaves me feeling full. There isn't anything better than feeling as if I already have the world and everything I need at my fingertips. I think when I am not content I tend to find things that will make me so. And I am learning that it is only the gospel and its principles that truly allow me to take full advantage of being content.