Fear

I am always amazed at myself, for how often I allow fear to control my actions.   I always feel my best when I let go and follow through and allow courage to carry me.  I realized that fear holds us back, it stifles us.  Fear brings a frozen bed of ice that slowly creeps in us, slowing us down, and sometimes completely stopping us.   I think there are good fears, such as fear of God, fear of wrong, or dangerous things.   The fear I am talking about is the bad fear.

This fear creates disillusionment, and confusion.  It crumples our fragile self esteem if allowed.  It questions, expects, and disappoints.  

I think often of where I am.   I am at the same place I was four years ago, emotionally.  That wall.  I fear what I am on the other side.  For once though I am asking myself,  why?   The answer is, someone (Satan) wants to hold me back, wants me to avoid becoming and being who I can and should be.  And the fear he uses is a powerful tool.  I have often wondered why someone who is addicted to drugs, and knows they should stop, keeps using.  The reality is fear has controlled them.

It is a powerful tool, yes.  But we can overcome that tool with hope.

When we let go of the fear, it no longer controls our thoughts.  When we step forward into the smallest beam of light it dissipates.  It cannot coexist with hope.   What fears are holding you back?

It is time to step into the light.  It is time to move forward in hope and realize that what you are going towards is beautiful, right, and exactly what you hoped to be!