A day at a time

"Wait on the Lord: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the Lord."

I read this yesterday, during my daily reading, and it was the exact verse I needed.  I have seen where I think I am waiting upon the Lord, but in reality what I am doing is trying to force my own fears, hopes, and agenda upon the Lord, instead of truly seeing the heart of the matter through the Lord's eyes.

Since last year I have had a tremendous fear of dying.  I am in great health, I am witnessing the Lord's hand in my life, giving me time, and yet I fear it being taken away, when I know in my heart that it will not happen.

Fear, I believe, will be our greatest failure.  When we hold on to fear, we really are only holding ourselves back.  Fear may be good in some instances, such as fear in the Lord, but most often times,  Satan uses fear to distract us from our true goals.   He creates fear and doubt, so that we in turn question, stall, and become stagnant.  You have seen my stagnation through my entries.  I have allowed fear to hold me back, and in turn have created my own failure.

I am striving a day at a time, to eat right, to exercise, and to do all that I can to ensure my health.  My hope is to lay my head on my pillow each night, and feel at peace with my accomplishments.   And as I do this, I wait upon the Lord to direct my paths, to teach me, and show me how to improve even more.   I am waiting upon the Lord, to give me courage to overcome my fear, and strength to overcome my weakness.

I was never required to do this alone,  I am not alone.  There may be times when I feel alone, but that is when I need to pray,  and ask for help.   A day at a time!