Doubt Not, Fear Not

So this week has posed its challenges, but I have also discovered so many things. To start off, my weight: on Monday was the same. Frustrating? Yes! My frustration did put me in a slump for a few days, I did work out, although on Tuesday it was more like a warm up...

I did doubt the process. I began to wonder, "What is the point of all this hard work if it isn't paying off?" This was a mistake on my part. BIG MISTAKE. I failed to see what I had accomplished, and sometimes you cannot put a number on it. So here is my little report of what I have accomplished in the past seven days.

1: Overcame fear and played basketball. ( This is HUGE because I love to play, but I have used my weight as an excuse not to!)

2: Played in basketball, and instead of getting too winded, I was exhilarated, pumped up, and wanting more!

3: I did forty full sit ups, you know the ones where you lie flat on the floor and then have to bring your body up to your legs. For so long, I believed I was too fat to do them, and to my shock and surprise, they were easier than I expected!

4: I did have a slip in eating, but I didn't enjoy it! I was ready to get back to what I know works!

5: I have more energy.

6: I have seen blessing in other areas of my life. I realized that I am now 500 pages into the Old Testament!

7: I have the desire and drive to do more, be more, and accomplish more.

8: The fear that has ruled my actions for so long has disappeared. I am able to feel confident in my goals, my abilities, and my character.

You see and number cannot provide that information. It is just a number that shows the level of gravity on my body. That number will change, and I know that I have to be patient, trust, and not doubt.

So in parting I would love to leave you with a quote that I heard.

" We are not brave enough, bold enough.

We do not understand our true selves."

This is true. I think that if I truly knew my true self, I would be more bold, have more faith in my capabilities. I am grateful for the challenges I face. With each challenge, I uncover a part of me I knew was there all along, but laid hidden in the depths.

So today, look at what you accomplish and you may be surprised that your hard work not only pays off on what you focus on, but also in other areas you didn't think were possible.