Mediocrity?

So today started out horrible. Woke up exhausted from a long weekend in the sun, and surrounded by too many smelly animals, cheering on my little girls. So I went to Mcdonald's which is essentially way too close to home! And of course had a nasty breakfast with a Coke. I planned on mediocrity, I gave myself permission for it. But luckily that isn't how my day went.

I got a call from a neighbor who needed me to watch her girls. And so a day planned of pure laziness became one of action. I even towards the end of the day mowed the lawn with my hubby, and then came the favorite part of my day.

My oldest girl is running in a school track meet next week and asked if she could run around the block. So instead of saying, "Sure go ahead." I said, "Let me finish this part of the lawn and I will run with you." Now around the neighborhood is about a half a mile. So I ran two laps with her, then I ran two laps with my younger daughter. And then I ran one with the whole family, and walked the last one by myself.

I have heard many people say to involve your kids in your workouts, but I thought it would become too troublesome. Gratefully I was taught I lesson. I had a one on one moment with each girl. I spent a small moment of time giving them undivided attention and a listening ear, and I was able to get a workout too.

As I walked my last lap, the sun was beginning to set and the grass was turning a more brilliant shade of green, and the flowers and blossoms were vibrant. I looked at the beauty around me and wondered, about myself. I thought, "Can I picture myself thinner, in better health?" And I was amazed at my own response. You see I have allowed myself to seek only mediocrity in my health and well being. I have pushed myself and worked hard to be someone impressive, but I have also hidden behind my weight too. I have honestly only pictured myself one pant size smaller than I am. When I think about my weight loss, I have said that I am fine staying the way I am as long as I am healthy. But truth be told, the way I look now is not healthy. And if I was healthier there is no way I would look the way I do. I am not in horrible shape, but in the same sense I am. I have only seen myself as I am, maybe a tad smaller. I have never pictured myself smaller, or desired that for myself. I have given myself permission to be mediocre and that is why I think I am stuck in a repetitive cycle.

So from now on I am only going to focus on my success and what I can be come. I am going to picture a new end result. And I am going to strive hard to reach it. Do not allow yourself to be mediocre.