As I wrote a month ago, sorry it has been so long, I have a new challenge that I am facing. I just found out that I am pregnant! Now if you know me personally you know how amazing this is, my last child was a miracle in our eyes. I have two beautiful wonderful girls and then there is a seven year break and then along came my son. Those seven years were very trying, and so the idea of being able to have another child is nothing short of a miracle! I can definitely see a loving Heavenly Father's hand in my life, and do not deny that each step I have taken has been an attempt to follow His will. And because of that my family and I have been greatly blessed!
As soon as I found out, I felt like I was in the middle of a tornado, with all the aspects of my life swirling around me, and I became very coherent of my inability to grasp anything solid or firm. I am a planner, I like to plan what I am doing, to help me prepare for what may happen, and of course life never goes exactly as you plan! So this adjustment was a huge curve ball. Here I was on a plan to lose weight, get healthy, and meet my goals, and now I am pregnant! It changes a lot!
This past month I have spent a lot of time reflecting upon it, and wondering what to do. The answer for me is: It doesn't matter so much the number on the scale or what size of pants I can fit into. What matters is what I learn, how I apply it, how it changes me and if it will change me for the better. I think we tend, me especially, to get caught up in the world's definition of beauty, but the reality is beauty goes a lot deeper than just size, and look. There are things I am capable of doing that women half my size are not, like running up and down a full length basketball court without getting winded! Is it important to be healthy, and take care of my body? Most definitely! But my expectations, and hopes need to be realistic. Do I still need to lose 40 pounds or a few more to be a little more healthy? Yes, and I will, but my plan has been prolonged yet again!
It would be easy to create a blog of quick success, to show that anyone can do it. For me though, it is more important to take my time, learn important lessons, and make the necessary changes I need to in order to be successful not only with a short term goal, but my lifetime goals as well. I like to think of it as changing from the inside out!
So hang tight, I am still around, but the progress will take a little bit longer! I am ten weeks along, high risk pregnancy, but on the upside, I have lost a total of 17 pounds since January!
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