I have no idea where the last two weeks went! All I can say is, I spent it teaching, attending basketball games, and serving sick children. Now in the past at this point, I would give in! I would give up! And start the horrible eating habits, and gaining back the weight. But this is different! I am trying to do the best that I can. And there are few things I have learned!
1: My craving for fast food, esp. french fries and hamburgers is gone!
2: My desire to workout has increased
3: I need to make sure I get sleep, when I am tired, I am more prone to eating crap.
4: My appetite has changed.
5: I still crave sweets!
6: I am gaining a testimony of the Word of Wisdom
"If any man will do his will, he shall know of the doctrine, whether it be of God, or whether I speak of myself" John 7:17
I read this scripture today, and will testify that I know this to be true. I fight against my own will while striving to follow His. I know that when I do His will, the doctrine I need to learn is taught and I gain a testimony of it. Seven to eight years ago, I put it to the test. I wanted to know about the Lord's tender mercies that I read about in the scriptures. And through the trial and tests during that time, I came to know them personally for me. I have been told to gain health, and study the Word of Wisdom. Is this process taking longer than I thought? YES! But the lessons I am learning along the way or invaluable! I wouldn't change it. The only thing I would change is the time lost due to my procrastination, and lack of action. I am hoping to lose three more pounds by the end of this month. The past two weeks have been so difficult, I have only been able to get in one or two workouts. Yet I feel the Lord's hand in my life blessing me, and I am confident that I can and will reach my goal.
I wish I could describe accurately to joy, peace, and hope I feel when I choose to follow the will of the Lord. All I can say is that when life seems difficult, overwhelming, and you are on your knees wanting to have the strength to accomplish your daily tasks, and what is asked of you. The Lord understands, and creates a way for you to do it. An example:
Last week I was completely drained, exhausted, and feeling like a failure. I was listing off in my head all of the things I have yet to accomplish, and wondering when a break would come. I was putting my son down to bed, and he was fighting it. He was restless and whiny, wanting me. I was already concerned about him, because he was tired, and acting unlike himself. About an hour after I finally get to sleep, he wakes up and is sick. Stomach flu. I remember laying there after he calmed down for a bit, tearing up thinking, "Really? I wasn't overwhelmed enough, now this?" I went into my front room and got on my knees, sobbing. I prayed. "Heavenly Father, I am so tired, and overwhelmed, I want to do all that thou asks me to, but I am failing. I know I will get through this. I know that this is such a simple inconsequential complaint, but for me it is my struggle. I need Thee. I need help....
Was my son miraculously healed? No, but I did feel the ministering of angels. I felt the peace and comfort of the Holy Ghost, and my heart was troubled no longer. Did my road get any easier? No, my other two children became sick the following week. But I was strengthened, carried, and reassured. My prayer was answered. I am tired, I am overwhelmed, but my desire to do my Heavenly Father's will means more to me. I get up every morning and do my best. I fall short at times, and forget. Yet I am still able to do what I need to. And each day is a new day of hope! This will pass, and I know I will be able to look back upon it and see the Lord's Hand. Right now it is blur, my understanding of it all is misty, but when the clouds break, and the light shines in. I will know and understand the why of the Lord's will. Right now it is faith and trust, forget about the pixie dust!
So, as you strive to accomplish your own goals. Remember you can and will accomplish them. Be patient, long suffering, and remain always hopeful. You will see it, the silver lining, the rainbow, the light. You will find the joy! Keep working towards it.
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