If only my mind could type!

Almost another month. It seems like only a week ago I made posted, sorry for the delay. I am in the middle of a whirlwind, trying to find my routine and balance, and honestly at times I feel as if I am barely hanging on. I think about posting every day, and I seem to be falling short of that goal. I made it today though!!

Today I start a Zumba class! I am nervous, excited, and grateful for a friend who is keeping me motivated and moving.

It seems as if lately, I have been going through a lot of internal warfare. I am striving to gain my center, my confidence, my calm. Sometimes I feel like Stuart Smally, "I am good enough, I am smart enough, and doggonit people like me!" I continually am reminding myself that I am.

Why do we feel that we need to prove ourselves to someone? Why do we question our capabilities, and talents, and smother them with our apologies because they fall short of someone else's expectations?

The past few weeks I have been wondering this.

The only person we truly need to please is our Heavenly Father.

I can feel the disappointment I have towards other people coming through my writing. I apologize. I guess you can say, I had hope in some people and my wind has blown completely out of my sails, and I feel deflated. This hope has caused me to question my own abilities and talents, and that is where the frustration comes. I know who I am, I know my capabilities, and unfortunately not everyone can or wants to see them.

So enough of the whining. My goal for today: LET IT GO! And to see the large picture with a clear and understanding heart. I cannot control other people's actions, reactions or choices, but I can CHOOSE to react differently. So goodbye disappointment, and HELLO JOY! Because I will find joy in at least one thing today, if not more. I CHOOSE TO BE HAPPY, OPTIMISTIC, and LOVING.