This is real!

I want to keep my blog as positive and upbeat as I can. But I also know the power that comes through showing the whole scope of the process. If I were to only write positive and upbeat, I am sure there would be a part of you that would wonder what I was leaving out, and if this is at all what I say it is. And because life is naturally made up of highs and lows. It would only be natural to experience the same, you can be happy and on the right path but you still will find stumbling blocks, because we are never immune from them.

So this process is wonderful I am enjoying it. And I admit that yesterday I met with my first of many stumbling blocks. A swollen knee. Luckily yesterday, according to the program I am following, was a rest day from exercise. But today posed a challenge. I went through 2/3 of my workout. Which wasn't consistent, because of a two year old and potty training. Need I say more? So it was sporadic, my heart rate would drop and then I would have to pick it up again, and I had to lighten up on the lunges, etc because of the knee.

So how am I honestly feeling?

Frustrated. You see, I can taste my goal, and I want it! And I feel like I have held myself back long enough that I am not wanting to stop for anything.

I am realizing that if I am truly wanting to fulfill this desire, I need to trust in Heavenly Father. If I am striving to follow what I know in my heart is something I should do, then He will bless me. I am required to trust, have faith, and hope. I am doing the best that I can and I have to leave the rest up to Him. And I will admit, that is hard, because I have to give up control. Who likes to do that?! Yet, I have had too many experiences, namely my son, that have shown that when I give up control, I receive what I desire. When I turn it over to Him, I allow Him to bless me, change me, teach me, and ultimately help me succeed.

So, yes it is a stumbling block, but I did my best today. I gave what I could, the rest I trust He will take care of. He knows my heart, my hopes and my intentions.

So frustration is overcome with faith, nothing doubting, that I will be blessed with my desires. That I will accomplish my goal. I am not giving up, I am not using this as an excuse to eat, to slow down, or to stop. I am going to keep moving, stay true to the process, and in the end I will win.